I realized of late that I have lived in this city for almost 26 years, and have maybe 8 real friends to speak of. What's up with that? I also noticed that 1) most of my 8 friends are people who many people really want to be friends with, and 2) that I'm closer to each of the 8 than most other people. Is there a word for that, for a girl who isn't very popular herself, but maintains close friendships with really popular people?
Now.
I'm tired of my desk/computer job in the windowless box. I'm tired of seeing the same 4 people every day. They're lovely people, but a girl needs some variety.The time has come to strike out, to make a path for myself. Trouble is I have this annoying habit of being responsible and doing the right thing. The money is good, the job is dull. Suze Ormann (Ormand? whatever) says that money is not worth unhappines, especially in one's twenties. I'm over half done, and need to find fulfillment before the chips fall and I REALLY have to start being responsible.
It seems like older adults I know have resigned themselves to work they don't really enjoy, for the sake of mortgages and college funds.
The time to start is now.
I just wish I knew what the heck I want to do!
I've gotta get over this low self-esteem and build some confidence righ away. I'm 8 years out of high school (yikes!) but am gripped with teen angst on a semi-weekly basis. Why o why did I never learn to schmooze?
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